May 23 – Our Careful Unbelief

“Commonsense carefulness in the life of a disciple is unbelief.” God, help me in my unbelief. The Spirit of God will push into our lives to examine where He is at in our priorities. He presses the point until we learn to make Him our first consideration. When we put other things first, we do not honor Him and confusion is inserted. As I thought about this when I read, I was thinking exactly about trying to get this interview set up without ever talking it over with God. I set it up without giving Him any consideration or thought as to what is best. Let alone if it was even right for me to do this interview. I put my desires ahead of Him. I am sorry Lord. As we are reminded to not worry about our life, we should not take the pressure of our provisions upon ourselves. “it is not only wrong to worry, it is unbelief; worrying means we do not believe that God can look after the practical details of our lives, and it is never anything but those details that worry us.” This passage stung! Here I was worrying over getting an interview with Whole Foods setup and re­arranged. It was something I desired and wanted, yet I was taking it into my own hands. I was worried about the “practical details” and not trusting God to work it out. Yet, as I prayed through this, God reminded me of the bigger picture and how in this time of nine days before our 60 day notice to the apartment is due and two months until our final day on our lease happens, I was worried. I was worried that God wouldn’t work it out. I was worried that we would have to pay more money. I was worried what are we going to do and we need to do this quick and we need answers. Yet God, in His infinite timing will provide. He will give us what we need exactly when we need it. I will not worry about life, or where we will live, or what we will eat; God is working it out in His infinite wisdom for His great purpose. As I thought more about those convictions, God struck again. This time as I thought about how I didn’t want to lose money by paying month­to­month on the apartment and masking it by saying I want to be a good steward, I was convicted that money was once again a counterfeit god. The old saying of whatever is threatened to be taken away and hurts the most came true when I realized that losing all this money really upset me. While I want to be a good steward, God is will work out if and when we move and will provide the guidance, means and wisdom to lead us. I let go of my plans to move, I let go of the worry, the what is next, the questions and doubt and will trust in my God my Savior to lead our lives wherever that may be. It is not evil that chokes the Word out of us, but all the little worries and cares of this life. “The only cure for unbelief is obedience to the Spirit. God grant me obedience to trust and follow you. May I abandon all my dreams, desires, hopes, dreams, plans, career, glory, counterfeit gods, marriage and every part of my life for you. I trust in you completely. Help me in my unbelief to believe and be obedient